I want to better. I want to send emails and write blog entries with no spelling errors. I want to be healthier. I want to be a more compassionate person. I want to be more effective in my time management. I want to be neater. I want a better relationship with God. I want to give my family more quality time. I want to cook more and eat out less. I want to drink less soda. I want whiter teeth. I want to be in a better place financially. I want to be a better listener.
The list of my wants goes on. I imagine I am not the only one who wants to be a better version. The way I live my life is a testament to God, so every error seems to be letting God down. My imperfections are glaring and ever before me. I imagine that is why I like Peter so much. He routinely makes mistakes in the Bible. He is rebuked, warned, and scolded. He denies Jesus. Yet, it is on him that the church is built.
Peter shows us that we are not expected to be perfect. We are expected to do our best to honor God. We are expected to realize our need of God’s guidance. We are called to realize that we need other people to help us and hold us accountable. No one is perfect. We all want to be better. We can only expect a certain amount of self improvement, the rest is god improvement. Especially this week, let us be molded and shaped by the one who loves us unconditionally. Let’s not pay attention to the small things, but let us pay attention to the large things. Let us pay attention to Jesus, our faith life, and how we share our faith with the world. Peter denied Jesus three times before the rooster crowed. Do you deny Jesus? Do you deny Jesus your time or attention? Do you deny Jesus a place in your decision making?
Maybe we cannot get all our wants met, but we can grow as children of God. We can in our imperfect states be builders of the kingdom. Allow God to work in and through you. Accept God’s offer of relationship with you just as you are.